i was told by someone to update my xanga, so here i am. it has been a really long time, i kind of forgotten about this site. hehe. well, im still kind of looking for a job. i feel like im on limbo, i dont know what i really want to do so im stuck. i dont know how to get out of it. i guess me not getting that job did, do something to me. i kind of lost hope that i will ever find a job in the human services field. i know i know...i have to face some kind of rejection before i can actually land a job, but how many rejections do i have to face? ok i dont want to be a big baby and whine about this kind of stuff.

well i think i might being moving up within the bank. it is not a big move but a change for once. but ill update this if and when i get it. but thats it for now. peace out

woooo...i havent been here for a while...hehee...i guess i got a lil lazy. well i have been job hunting, havent really had any luck. i went to one interview, but i dont know...i'll see how that one works out. i dont want to think too much of it because if i dont get it, it will be my fault when i get sad about it.

next monday i will have to go to court with my dad for his fishing ticket thing. i dont know what the judge is going to say and the worse part is that i dont know where the court is. we have to be there by 8am...that means that i have to leave the house at 7am just in case of traffic. isnt that lovely. blah...i havent woke up that early since....its been so long i dont even remember the last time i woke up that early. hehe...working at night doesnt help too...i sleep so late and wake up late. oh well...as long as i get my hours of sleep...hehe...ok i guess thats all for now...peace

so here i am 5 o'clock in the morning...i didnt want to be up this early in the morning...but yeah...the marina del ray police called me at 450am...apparently my dad has an undersize bass fish and he didnt bring his ID or his fishing license. lets keep in mind that my dad is very forgetful and dont speak english very well, so he probably really irritated the hell out of the police there...so john, the arresting police officer, calls and asks me describe how my dad looks like and im like "what the heck", i was like "is my dad ok?" and john told me that he is getting a ticket for have an undersize fish. poor daddy, he must have been really scared in that jail cell...oh yeah they had to take him in to the police station because he didnt have any ID on him and so my dad told the police officer to call me...yeah so here i am...a sitting duck waiting to see if i need to pick him up...he went with a friend, but his friend didnt get a ticket because he didnt have any fish with him. my dad went to check if his friend is still there and if not he will call me back. i guess i wont be sleeping for a while...

till next time...

job hunting has been kind of blah...i dont know how else to describe my experience. im sure that all of you who had to job hunt would feel the same..so i guess its my turn. i dont have any doubt that i will be able to find another job, but what im scared of is that i wont get paid as well as i want to be. i think im losing a lot of sleep over the job search thing. i guess in my unconscious mind im a lil scared of getting a bad job and even worse getting paid very lil. i have had really weird dreams for the past week. my dream mostly consist of me falling and sinking and i cant seem to bring myself back up. i know what they say about those kind of dreams, i guess in a way it is true. im a lil worry about my future, especially in the career department. paul always tell me to take it one day at a time and im trying really hard to do that, but i cant help but think where i might be in 2 years. in 2 years i would like to be working for a good company doing something that i love or that i enjoy and get paid well doing it. if this happens in 2 years i will be really greatful and bless to have found a job that i enjoy.

on another note...

im a lil sadden to find out that two of my coworkers, who were dating each other for 3 years, broke up. i talk to both of them and they are really cool people. i guess it makes me a lil sad because when it comes to relationships, im a very optimistic kind of person, especially with other people's relationship. i feel that love can conquer it all, but yet, in the back of my head i know better. yes, i know that im contradicting myself, that is how you guys should know that im a true gemini. optimism is my middle name when it comes to relationship.

ok thats all folks...